so i've realized a couple of things about myself recently. i really am i difficult person to have in your life. i'm a flip-flopper. one minute i'm happy, and the next i'm not. one minute you're my best friend, and we're planning to be in each other's lives forever, and then the next i don't really want anything to do with you. it's quite sad actually. i think i get so caught up in my feelings and emotions that i don't really recognize the flaws that a person may have and once those feelings dissipate a bit, the flaws are all up in my face and it pisses me off. OR it could be that now i'm just realizing some things about the people i want in my life and those that i don't. ehh...it's definitely complicated and i need to change some things about myself. anyway, i'm annoyed at the moment so i'ma write later!